Monday, June 10, 2013

Ok, that will be enough now....

When is enough, enough?  I'm pretty convinced that I don't want to know the answer to that.  Or, perhaps, I've found it already.

What a stressful few weeks we've had in this family.  I'm not even brave enough for the "what else can happen?" question, because life has gotten pretty good at showing you that it can, indeed, put you in your place.

 We have had some pretty nasty issues with Kensie at school, leading to her being depressed, due to bullying.  A classmate recently committed suicide for the same reason.  I won't dwell on that, just know that it is a horrible thing, and these parents REALLY should be held accountable.  If you are a parent, even if you don't think they are involved in such behavior, PLEASE talk to your children about the affects of bullying.

I haven't mentioned this yet, but recently my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer.  She has a tumor about the size of the end of a finger, and it has caused one of her lungs to "fold over" on itself.  It's cutting off her breathing, and pushing up against her vocal cords, causing her to not be able to breathe or talk.  While I suspected it was a diagnoses that was coming, it still was a shock.  She was supposed to start radiation treatment last Friday.  She went in for her testing and prep on Thursday.  When she arrived Friday, they informed her they had found more cancer.  There is one spot on her collar bone, and 4 (Or 5, I don't remember which) in her brain.





Mom says the doctors are confident that they can treat it with the radiation.  Followed by chemo.  I wasn't prepared for this.  Then again, is anyone ever prepared for this?  We just have to take one day at a time, pray and hope for the best, and be confident that she is in very good hands.  We have never been through something like this, I have no idea what to I pray for the best.

 Right now, most things are just a haze, and I can't even imagine what is going through my mothers mind.  I was lucky to spend most of the day with her, my step-father, and brother, yesterday, just hanging out.
Today, Jei left town for 3 weeks of work training. :( My best friend is on vacation for the next week. :( She has done an awesome job of checking up on us.  I miss her like crazy, but being that we live 1.5 hours apart, I miss her like crazy every day.

The next few months will be difficult, I am sure, but I am surrounded by people who are a great support system, and I am blessed in that.

Please keep my mom in your thoughts and prayers.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013


This past winter, we bought new kayaks.  I LOVE to kayak about as much as I love to geocache, or camp. We have been itching to get out on the water, but weather and work schedule have prevented it.  Yesterday both of those aligned, and we were able to get the yaks wet for the first time ever.

It was a perfect day.  It was SO good to be out on the water again, enjoying nature, and the company.  It was so completely relaxing.  It was the exact thing I clear my head for awhile.

There has been a LOT going on in my personal life here lately.  My mother has been pretty sick, and that has been very scary for me.  I don't like seeing her this way.  She isn't mom when she is sick.  I just keep praying she gets better soon, and that the oncologist has the answer.

I've also been dealing with my youngest daughter being severely bullied at school, and her depression from it.  It saddens me just how mean and hurtful some people can be, just because it brings them pleasure.  I can't imagine being a child in school these days.  It's hard enough to deal with bullying as an adult, but these poor kids. Just yesterday, a 13 year old one town over shot him self outside of his old school.  A classmate of my daughters over-dosed 2 weeks ago.  It seems every day another child is taking their life because of bullying.  It angers me, greatly, and I really feel like it's time the schools and parents were held accountable for not protecting these victims.  I know I personally have talked to the school several times about my daughters situation, and it seems nothing is being done, because it still continues.  My saving grace, there. are only 6 days of school left.

Aside from work, and the stuff mentioned, there isn't really a whole lot going on, other than I've been going to the gym with my friend, Sabrina.  I've really been enjoying that.  I also had my first camping trip of the year, last weekend, and it was AWESOME!  Some friends of mine recently bought property along a river, and it was the perfect place for many of us to gather for the extended weekend.  It was SO nice to not have any agenda, and just enjoy the time together.

Hope everyone is well....